Waiting

Waiting is hard and none of us like to do it. We live in a microwave society and we want everything right now, quickly, and sometimes we just have to wait. Maybe you have just been interviewed for a new job or promotion and you are waiting to hear from them. Maybe you have taken some kind of licensing test and you are waiting to see if you passed. Maybe you have a family member or friend that you haven’t heard from in a long time, and you are waiting for them to contact you. Or maybe you are like me and your doctor has ordered some medical tests and you are waiting to hear the results. Waiting is no fun and while you are waiting anxiety and fear can overwhelm you.

I just returned from vacation and had a wonderful time with my family, but I spent my whole vacation WAITING. The day before I left on vacation I had to see three of my doctors. They were just routine follow up appointments and I anticipated that they were going to tell me everything looked good and I didn’t need to come back for six months. But that didn’t happen. My oncologist didn’t like what she saw on my blood tests and decided that she wanted to run some more tests.

I left on vacation with fear trying to overwhelm me. I was waiting for the doctor to call me back and kept my phone close by my side. I kept googling what the test results could possibly mean and of course fixated on the worst possible scenario. The doctor’s office finally called and scheduled a sonogram. I came back to Texarkana to have the test and then had to wait again to hear the results. My whole vacation seemed to be a waiting game. When I got those test results back, they wanted to schedule a CT scan. Again I spent my time waiting for the test then waiting for the results.

My whole vacation was spent waiting…and it created fear and anxiety. I allowed worry to steal my much needed rest. I allowed fear to steal my peace. Questions kept going through my mind: What if they wanted to do a biopsy? What if cancer had spread? What if…?

The Bible talks about another kind of waiting, but this waiting brings peace and strength. This is the kind of waiting I should have done. Isaiah tells us that “those who wait on The Lord will renew their strength…” I should have spent my time “waiting on The Lord.” Wait here means to trust in The Lord, to put your hope in The Lord. I should have spent my time trusting Him with what was going on in my body. I should have spent my time putting my hope in Him. Instead, I spent my whole vacation waiting on my doctors and waiting on test results. My kind of waiting turned into anxiety and worry, the other kind of waiting would have turned into new strength and peace.

Towards the end of my vacation I finally received good news that the test results showed no signs of more cancer. All of my waiting and anxiety ended up being nothing. Don’t waste your energy and strength on the wrong kind of waiting. Wait on The Lord, put your hope in Him and trust Him to take care of you.

“But they who wait for the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint. ” Isaiah 40:31

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Comments

  1. LaNell, it’s all a learning opportunity, isn’t it? We’ve both had a lot of experience waiting and I find the more waiting I’ve had to do, the more anxiety (not always) is tamed. It’s that unknown factor. I’m good at navigating the familiar, but the twists and turns of the unknown seem to take way longer. It’s a good thing to learn to live in the present and enjoy what’s right before you. Love you!!

    • Lacy Clark says:

      This opened my eyes to what I have been doing wrong. Waiting is hard for me. I have found that while waiting on things in my life, I do, have turned my waiting time into anxiety, fear and doubt. I ended up making things worse. Thank you for allowing me to look at my problems and situations with faith and leave it up to God!

  2. Amber Barkley says:

    Thank you!

  3. Aneesah Rasheed says:

    I have a real problem with waiting. I’m not the one that “waits on the Lord”. Currently I feel like I have been waiting for forever but it has only been a couple of months. It has bren aome kind of rolled coaster ride…Like you, I am learning to have peace while I wait….because there’s not a thing I can do to make it go any faster. Thanks for this post. I must get rid of the anxiety and just believe God and know that this too shall pass. Love you!

  4. Betty Ann Mattoon says:

    I am a survivor of breast cancer as of June 4, 2014. Like you, I was shocked when diagnosed and then relieved knowing I am cancer free, but the waiting time between is a very stressful time! my heart goes out to you and others who face(ed) this horrid Cancer! God Bless all!

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