We arrived home from our family vacation last night and I have been feeling so good since it has been almost 5 weeks since I had my last chemotherapy. That’s the good news. The bad news is that I have to go back on Monday for my missed appointment and I am anxious about what my doctor will say. She didn’t want us to go on vacation until after the chemo treatments (and radiation) were over, but that would have been after school was back in session. Anyway, I don’t think my doctor can really blame me for my missed session. It wasn’t my fault that the nurse practitioner cancelled it. (All I did was pray that I wouldn’t have to have chemo until after my vacation and I am not sure how much she believes in the power of prayer.)

I was exercising on my elliptical machine this morning and this silly red bird kept flying into my window. I video’d it several times and it didn’t matter how many times it hit the glass, it kept flying into my bedroom window again and again.

I can’t imagine what the bird thought was so important that it would risk it’s life by banging into my window so many times. I read a quote this week by Albert Einstein: “Insanity: Doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results.” That’s what this red bird was doing, but all it ever got was a major head ache. I named him Headbanger.

The whole time I was exercising he kept banging his head against my window. (It had to be a male because us females are smarter than that.) I stopped several times to video tape him and thought about how often we keep doing the same thing over and over again and think that we will get different results. The way we parent our children, or treat our spouses, or pursue our dreams, or live our Christian life (or try to lose weight). If we don’t change how we do things, our circumstances won’t change and we will be no closer to achieving our goals.

The Apostle Paul wrote, “Don’t you realize that in a race everyone runs, but only one person gets the prize? So run to win! All athletes are disciplined in their training. They do it to win a prize that will fade away, but we do it for an eternal prize. So I run with purpose in every step. I am not just shadowboxing.” (1 Cor. 9:24-26)

Shadow boxers are like headbangers, lots of activity but no real accomplishment. The bird was just a headbanger and never achieved it’s goal. We need to stay focused on our goal and act with eternal purpose in mind. Don’t just be a headbanger. Make the needed changes in your life so that you don’t just end up with a headache at the end of the day.



  1. Teresa DeLoney says:

    That poor stupid bird. lol Great lesson he brought with him though! 😉

  2. Genie Gothard says:

    So glad y’all had a good time & you were able to enjoy your vacation!! Yes The Lord worked it out for you, He knew you needed it!! That is a great analogy with the bird!! Love You!!

  3. Mary Lou says:

    Oh LaNell,
    How wonderful the way the Lord worked it out for you to go on your vacation BEFORE chemo again. So amazing!

    AND, what a great word, message, or lesson, that God gave you through the redbird. I’ll be glad when I can hear you preach again.

    I love you

  4. What a great analogy – but poor bird, I think your windows must be too clean. Lol

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